Jan 29, 2012

still here!

Hello my loves! I have been a BAD BAD BLOGGER, huh? It is the end of jan 2012. I am now on a mission..... secretive mission. I have a plan for myself and it wont be easy or pretty.... but i have a new goal for the summer! Physique just put the nail in my NPC career. I was too hard and lean for them, and I refuse to put on more muscle for a bunch of judges. I like the amount of muscle I carry. I am DONE with the NPC but have another interesting organization I like. Please stay tuned and I will promise to keep up with my blogging.

Right now, I'm really having a hard time staying motivated. it's hard to admit this. I dont like telling people about my bad days because I'm the trainer, right? Well, even we have roadbumps and get down on ourselves. I might even call it downright DEPRESSION some days?! Mine started right after my show last summer, when I got home. I have a wonderful group of neighbors who love to drink and be social. So I got caught up with these fantastic women, and started making some bad habits.

Also had an "injury". My elbow was really hurting me all thru my training last summer. So for about 4 months I babied my elbow, but it got really bad about November. I couldn't even brush my teeth or pick up a cup... so after trying all kinds of things... I sucked it up and got a steroid injection in my "tennis" elbow. NOW, seems like the other elbow is starting to hurt, so i'm icing and babying that one. We'll see what happens, but i'm pushing thru.

Feb 1st will be a BIG day for me! I'm committed to drinking only on the weekends, and pushing hard thru my training. Getting back on a scheduled eating program and not missing a workout. My husband left for 3 weeks, but i think it might help me stay tighter to schedules, etc. I'll be hiring a neighbor to babysit 3 evenings a week so I can go to the gym. By the middle of Feb, my head will be RIGHT!

Thanks if you are still out there, lurking at my sorry blogging skills. Hope you are in a good, healthy routine for yourself. it's not easy, but every new morning is a new opportunity to MAKE IT A GREAT DAY and get back to healthy habits!